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[30 Oct 2005|10:16pm] |
To you all.
I am keeping this Journal.
But I made a new one.
For close friends only.
So if you think we are close friends leave me a message.
Then I'll add you.
But only if I think we are close friends.
Have no fear though. I love you all.
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[26 Oct 2005|10:08pm] |
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Okay I'm quite curious. A lot of things have changed since last year. We are all changing and growing and becoming ourselves more and more each day. I just want to know if we are still friends? Leave me a comment and let me know please. Maybe add why too. That would be great ♥
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| Holy moley its almost November. |
[24 Oct 2005|06:42pm] |
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Omigosh! I'm really excited! Mom just told me that I'm getting a car! Finally after a year and a half I'm getting my aunts car. I should have the car by Friday of this week how sweet. So that happened today. Um MEAP retakes all week so shitty. I have 3 out of 5 that I have to take. ghetto. So yeah. Which means I have to wake up earlier than usual and blah blah blah. Anyways...
WEDNESDAY GO TO THE RAVEN PEOPLES SO I CAN SEE YOU ALL AND GET HUGS! I MISS YOU ALL TERRIBLY!
Courtney is hopfully most likely going with me. School is school nothing really to comment on there. Things with Justin are great! I'm going to marry that boy. Its for sure. And yeah I really dont have anything else to say.
Courtney is my lover-mate bff♥
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[12 Oct 2005|08:22pm] |
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Things are really starting to look up!
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[11 Oct 2005|02:49pm] |
You would think one morning I just woke up and realized what I wanted to do with my life. I finally have a pretty set plan and it makes me feel pretty good. Its going to take a lot of work though. If you want to know these plans its okay if you want to ask me :)
Note to you all: I miss you all bunches!
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[09 Oct 2005|09:48pm] |
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I hate seeing my bestfriend hurt. No scratch that. My like only friend.
But thats not so much my fault. I mean everybody grew apart, everybody got busy. Thats okay. The only thing that sucks is not having people to hang out with all the time. I miss going to the Raven every Wednesday and seeing all the familiar faces, I pretty much mist everybody and everything. I feel so busy. And the pressure is definitely setting in. Schools really hard this year because of the classes I am taking. I'd like to say my job interferes with things, but honestly I hardly work. I'm looking around again. Seriously. But it does seem to inconvenience me when I already have plans. I started babysitting every other Friday again, so its some money. But yeah I need a new job, my cousin said she could get me a job at Cracker Barrel as a hostess, so we will see. Hmm. I have a hair app. on Tuesday. bye bye bleached out hair. Hello darkness. On Friday Courtney came over and we watched the new Degrassi together, then we went across the street to babysit. It was pretty easy, the baby was sick and slept the whole time we were there, the other two kids always do as theyre told, So we watched Casper and Courtney slept the whole time and then I watched The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy, and then watched Degrassi again. Then I started watching The Andy Milonokis(however you spell it) Show, then they came home, I woke Courtney up, got paid, came home and we talked to Justin and his friend Dan fore like 2 hours on Aim. Then we all went to bed. Then Saturday we woke up about noon. Ate some eggs and bacon, watched Laguna Beach and the Real World. Then we went upstairs and went through all of my cds and labeled all the mixes, then I cleaned up some of it. A little bit later Courtney went home, but she called me and then burned me 12 cds, she stopped by my house a little later and gove me 7 of them. Pretty awesome. I talked to Justin until like 1:30 in the morning then I cleaned some more and went to bed. This morning I helped my dad move my day bed from my room and my little white closet out, so my room is seriously under construction. I'm getting two new dressers and carpet and curtains and blinds. so yeah its pretty effin sweet. And then I didnt feel good all day so I watched Mrs.Doubtfire (while I was talking to Justin) and Grease which I went to lay down to watch and slept through the whole thing. And then now I've just been hanging around and stuff. I'm really not feeling good so I think I'm only going to go to school up through pod then I'm going to call home. So yeah.
Courtney is seriously my bestest friend. I dont know what I would do without her.
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[01 Oct 2005|06:00pm] |
Tonight is the Mardi Gras dance.
Hopfully should be a good time.
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[25 Sep 2005|12:07am] |
Its so funny how you scream at me and tell me I've changed.
Well look at yourself! You fucking hypocrit!!!
Youve changed.
And then you blame me for shit that wasnt just my fault.
Youre only mad at me when 2 other people were involved.
Youre such an asshole.
I may have changed but that because I started hanging out with new people and didnt hang out with you for a long time and then we did, maybe you just forgot who I was or maybe you just didnt know me at all.
You should really just stop talking.
Stop blaming me for shit.
Stop being mad over something stupid.
Ass.
Seriously.
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[12 Sep 2005|06:37pm] |
I need help in math. Anybody willing to help me out? I'm talking I need a tutor.. well anyways yeah, thats my biggest problem. Schools okay. I just keep telling myself one more year and its over.
( Stop Staring at me. )
I am happy.
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[25 Aug 2005|10:21am] |
Me- "I didnt know where I was going. I sat down and saw the cross on the wall, I then looked at the door and it said Prayer Room"
lol
I am such a dork.
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[25 Aug 2005|09:52am] |
I'm at Mercy Hospital right now in the waiting room. My aunt is in having surgery.
I'm amazed that there is actually a computer with internet access in here.
Sweet.
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[19 Aug 2005|07:41pm] |
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So I got new hair.
Love it or hate it.
It doesnt matter to me.
( I watch the falling stars )
I under went 2 bleechings
Then she put this other stuff on it to take the really golden stuff out of it.
In the end I now have Chemical burn on my scalp.
My conclusion?
Well worth it.
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| Why do I do this to myself? |
[18 Aug 2005|10:26pm] |
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So I'm slowly beginning to realize some of the major things that make me. I have never been passionate about anything, except for dance and writing. But with time I lost it and havent done either in quite some time. Soccer too actually, well and tennis. I am not passionate when it comes to almost anything, school etc... Except my friends. I try at least. And thats where in reality, the only thing I've been passionate about comes out. Helping others. I live on it.
Then theres the biggest part of me that really worries me. I am a very dependant, needy if you must say, person. In all truths, for the most part I would not do well on my own. I've never been very self-sufficient. When it comes down to things, I've depended on people most of my life, and have lived of people depending on me too. Heres the strange part, I work better on my own. I do have that figured out. I am a very selfish person, but at the same time I do care. I care a lot about other people, even if it doesnt show. I miss being the girl that everybody loved, I miss being the one people go to with their problems. I miss my life. The one I had before I distanced myself, the one before I started caring what people thought of me. The one before I hated myself.
I'm a weak person. I'll admit it. But with growing older and a little more wise, I'm realizing, I'm not as weak as I used to be. I have taken critisizim for about 14 years of my life. Always being compared to other people, the things I do compared to what others do. But now I'm realizing that thats what makes me Mallory. I am unique, no matter what I do. Even if I share the same likes and dislikes as you, I am me, and you are you. I finally understand that. Even though I'm not the most out going person in the world, I'm not the most shy either. I'm beggining to actually live my life, and to not feel sorry for the things I do or for the way I feel. I have Chris to thank for that.
In all honesty, if I wouldnt have met the people I have in the past 4 years, I dont know where I would be. I think you've al in a way helped me to discover who I am. Thank you. But I had to find it, and I think I'm begginging to. I have a long search a head of me. But I'm atleast trying. I am me. And I'm glad I am who I am. Theres always room for improvement, I plan on remodeling, in the end, I will be the same, but I will be more accepting of myself, satisfied with myself, and ready to take on the world.
I love all of my friends.
Katie
Courtney
Chris
Heidi
Rinker
Ellen
Mark Waters
Justin
Nicole
Dennis
Erica
Shelby
Dan Murphy
Megan
Alexis
Amanda
Lindsay
Lynnsie
Casey
Courtney
Simone
Zach
Ashley
Josh
Jeanette
Miles
Ian
Buddy
Alex
Danell
Nate
Larry
Matt
Kyle
Andrew
Alix
Rachel
Ricky
Jamison
Mike
Cathryn
Erica
Michelle
Taylor
Pfeiff
Darren
Tom
CJ
Amanda P.
Natasha
Adam
Donnie
Jason
Jenni
Robbie
Katie
Okay well I'm going to stop there.
There are many more.
And I thank all of you for your help and your support.
I love you guys.
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[17 Aug 2005|10:37am] |
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( Yep stole this from Miss Lindsay )
So I had plans with Katie today.
She totally ditched.
Now I feel like shit about it.
So Now I am free for the day.
Does anybody want to hang out with me?
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[17 Aug 2005|01:50am] |
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I want to have a gigantic group hug with all of my friends.
I miss you all wayyyy too much.
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[15 Aug 2005|06:56pm] |
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Some stuff happened at work.
Things are going shitty.
I got called in for a special meeting.
I have 2 weeks to improve myself or else I get fired.
I also dont go back on schedule until after Labor Day...
So that means I have a lot of freetime on my hands now.
I felt very degraded today.
If this doesnt work out I already know where and who I'm going to talk to.
I miss my friends.
Lets hang out guys!
Call me and stuff!
984.1955
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531.9872
I love all of you guys so much!
We used to have some really fun times.
I miss those times.
Lets hang out!!!
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[13 Aug 2005|10:16pm] |
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I saw the movie "The Skeleton Key". It wasnt what I expected. But it was an okay movie.
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[13 Aug 2005|12:50pm] |
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Whats up Shinanigans?!
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[11 Aug 2005|11:15am] |
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( Fruit Punch )
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